The Wait Is Over
We received the call a little while ago. Our beta was 5. Dr. K said that this was what is called a chemical pregnancy where one or more of the embryos tried to implant, but were unsuccessful. The nurse told me that Dr. K wanted me to stop my Estrace and PIO and my cycle should start soon. I am to go in for another blood test on Monday to make sure my body has gone back to zero.
This is a sad time for us, yet joyful.
We are sad because we love and miss our 4 precious babies.
We are joyful that they are no longer in their frozen state, but have great hope that they are in heaven this very minute with their Heavenly Father.
We are joyful that the Lord entrusted us to parent these little ones for even such a short time.
We are hopeful as we know there are four more siblings who remain frozen, entrusted to our care by our Lord. We are called to move forward to parent.
We are joyful for our Lord’s mercy and love and patience and grace in our lives.
We are joyful for the beautiful grace given to us through the birth of Elizabeth (our reversal baby) and Sarah (our precious girl given to us by the Lord through EA).
We are joyful as we move forward, though sad, that He has great things for all of His children!
For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly. O LORD of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you! Psalm 84: 10-12
We love you sweet babies.