Now If I Could Just Breathe?
No, really, I am breathing! I am praising God each and every hour for the wonderful life He has seen fit to place inside my womb. I feel so much better now that I am off that PIO! I am a new person. Whew, that was a mess! I am dumbfounded though that morning sickness has not hit yet. I am usually down with it starting at 5wks. Each pregnancy is different I know, but all of my kiddos made me so very ill! This time around, EVERYTHING is so different with this pregnancy, I am learning even more to trust the Lord, lean on His promises, and take advantage of the good days I have right now.
As most of you know, I have had 6 miscarriages. 4 of them have been consecutive and in the last 2 years. I have lost each of the last 4 between 6-8 weeks into my pregnancy. Now that the doctor found that the cause was more than likely caused by APS (an autoimmune blood clotting disorder) I am on Lovenox, a blood thinner injection, once a day. I also take a low dose aspirin every evening. These next couple of weeks will be my next challenge emotionally. I continue to seek Scripture and turn to prayer whenever I feel doubt/fear start to even start to creep in. I confess it and then rejoice at the lives and the bright day of motherhood I have at this very moment. It is a challenge though I will confess. I have been playing some beautiful CDs of hymns played on the piano the last few days and it truly keeps the tone so peaceful in our home.
Our ultrasound will be right at 8 weeks and yes, I am crossing of the days on the calendar with X’s! We have not had snow in the BIG storm of the South, but my kids really had hoped for some. Dallas got some, but nothing much further south than that. There is still a few weeks left for us to “maybe” get a flurry? We can only dream…